This is another excerpt from my devotional “And This Ain’t Hollywood Either” available on Amazon. If you have read any of the previous posts, I explained that this section of that book was written after my father had a life changing stroke at a Sunday School Christmas party. I am copying pages from that book so that anyone who finds themselves hurting this holiday season might find comfort. God is good all that time, always in the storm.
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.” 2 Corinthians 4:8-11
As I walked through Walgreen’s drugstore a little zombie-like from the lack of sleep and emotional stress, I passed by a small portable TV showing the movie “It’s A Wonderful Life”. George Bailey was shouting, “I wanna live again!” “Me, too, George,” I thought, “I wanna live again, also.” There are still laughs to be had, joyful moments to experience, and times to be playful like a kitten. Right now, all of those are so foreign to me. But, there is still a lot of life to be lived. There are other people in my life such as my husband and my children, who need me to be a wife and a mom. I must keep living. I must go on. With God’s help, I will live again. I will remember that many I know are also going through great pain and need me to be an example of a survivor. And survive I will. But I will not just survive—I will live again.